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...For one of my world famous blogs where I go on and on about nothing and everything, and I wish everything was different.

Actually I don\'t feel like going on and on forever like I usually do. I just feel like saying \"Don\'t fuck with me, not today.\" And suddenly it feels like it did but a few months ago, and I don\'t want to be here anymore.

I need to get away.

And its amazing how you can see your friends for the first time in ...

Today was so crushing for me. I came home feeling really upset and depressed and went to my room to paint. After work, my mother came up and she was watching me from the doorway and I was sitting there painting with an expressionless face and I was deep in thought and she asked me why I was so down and I just starting crying telling to stop talking because she was making me cry. Then she burst into tears and told me that she hated seeing me so upset. That made me worse and I just kept crying...so ...

Starting to like school a bit more now. Sick of being bored in free lessons though. Argued with Sarah AGAIN. But on the plus side I did a really cool art piece of MY RUIN with Tairrie and Mike\'s praying hands, the devil and the font. ?ber chuffed haha. Dunno what to do with myself now...bleh bleh bleh.

Might go straighten my hair again so that it frazzles lmfao.

The wages of SIN
Hold my heart HOSTAGE
My mouth is still CRUEL
My skin is in BONDAGE
My body is SCARRED
From lyrics I\'ve CARVED
Bruises I\'ve HEALED
Lips that I\'ve STARVED
Wounds I\'ve REPLACED
With LOVE and with HATE
The TRUTH set me FREE
But my FAITH was RAPED
I\'ve BROKEN my SILENCE
LIED to myself
Spoken in VIOLENCE
Been someone ELSE
SCREAMED at my DEMONS
PRAYED to my GOD ...

Omg...so I was talking to Yael (the drummer from My Ruin) and she was saying that when she has a gig in England I should go hang out with her and I was like wtf lmao. And she said about my picture:

YOU THE MONEY HONEY...GREAT PHOTO AND FELIX IS QUITE HANDSOME TOO...

Haha...I mean, its Yael lmfao. I\'m totally having a teeny fan moment lmao! Like woah hahaha madeness...