AngelC's Blog

Today was so crushing for me. I came home feeling really upset and depressed and went to my room to paint. After work, my mother came up and she was watching me from the doorway and I was sitting there painting with an expressionless face and I was deep in thought and she asked me why I was so down and I just starting crying telling to stop talking because she was making me cry. Then she burst into tears and told me that she hated seeing me so upset. That made me worse and I just kept crying...so she said that we should go for a walk together. So we did...and she asked me about everything and I told her about me feeling alone and lost in the world and that I feel I\'m running into walls sometimes, going nowhere, at a dead end. She was crying then...asking why I never told her before. Now she keeps hugging me and seeing if I\'m okay...its really weird. She thinks I feel lonely because shes working, my dad works loads and I\'m in school all the time, then I get home and have work so that we never see each other, but its not that...I don\'t know what it really is. Everytime I look at her now I get an emotional surge and start crying, then she starts crying. Just now she asked if I was any better. I told her I was. I\'m not...