Richie J's Blog

just had the most personal chat with my mother that we\'ve ever had our lives, just chatted about about everything thats wrong. my mother is always right, i should listen to her more, i wish my grandad was here too, he would know what to do right now. i miss him so much, i cant explain how much i wish he was here right now cos he would sort me out. tonites been shit basically but im glad chugga phoned me and my mother overheard the convo and came downstairs and we just talked about everything. its good to get everything out in the open with my mother, i havent told her anything thats been going on in the past 8months but tonite i told her everything, and there was tears from both of us. i dont know what i would do without my mother shes the most important person in the world to me. her and bear have helped me see sense tonite, no longer am i holding onto a dream thats never gonna come true. i enough said fuck in front of my mother tonite and she didnt care, in fact she said it back to me lol which was good cos that was what i needed to hear from her. i never thought it would come to this, and my worse fear has come true, i guess it was a lie when you said \"you were thinking of me\" when you was meeting him. bullshit. hate isnt a strong enough word right now what i feel for this guy, and as for the threats fro some random twat, well it didnt go down to well. oh well saturday will come and chaos will hit judges. love was gone from your heart long ago. hope your happy with what you got. at least i know in myself that im better than that twat, your loss