ex inferis' Blog

whats the hurry?...one minute at a time...MJK....thinking about it, there isn't anyone on the planet that lives one day at a time, let alone one minute....but im going to try my best to do so, letting whatever works above our physical form to take me wherever it wants to take me, and whatever comes in my way it shall be dealt with there and then and not before....anticipation is a distraction.....settling down at my desk today i noticed that kind of of air that comes when you got a full day ahead, dread, lack of self control...and anticipation...anticipating what is ahead....so i thought, isn't everything just a distraction?....even as i sat here earlier typing this my manager came over to me and told me to get off the net, to which i will admit, i anticipated happening and thus distracted me from finishing my entry.....like today, i will anticipate lunch hour, i will anticipate the time i finish, also my fag break, the point that the train comes down the platform, the point that i will be coming home and getting to my house, my first joint of the nite and the time i go home after practice, along with the mix of other things that will happen today and for the next fifty years.....writing songs is the only thing i dont anticipate, or should i say cant anticipate.....the point at which physical form and mental form co-incide to perfection, losing yourself as your aniticipation floats away, yet you can never anticipate this happening....anyone anticipating the ending yet?....the end....